Or so I often hope…
Day 15: Post a BDSM/kink activity you’re curious about and would like to try.
Day 16: What are the most difficult aspects of having a sexuality that involves kink or BDSM for you personally?
Day 17: What misconception about kinky people would you most like to clear up?
Day 18: Any kinky/BDSM pet peeves?
Day 19: Any unexpected ways kink has improved your life?
Day 20: Talk about something within kink/bdsm that you’re curious about/don’t understand.
Day 21: Favorite BDSM related book/movie.
Day 22: What do you think is important in keeping a BDSM relationship healthy? How does it differ from a vanilla relationship?
Day 23: Since you first developed an interest in kink, have your interests/perspectives changed?
Day 24: What qualities do you look for in a partner?
Day 25: How open are you about your kinks?
Day 26: What’s your opinion on online BDSM play?
Day 27: Do your non-kink interests ever find their way into your kinky activities?
Day 28: How do you dress for kink/BDSM play? What significance does your attire have to you?
Day 29: Do you have a BDSM title (e.g. mistress, master, slut, pig, whore, princess, goddess, ma’am, sir)? What is your opinion of the use of titles in general?
Day 30: Whatever BDSM/kink related thing you want to write about.
For the past few months, my life has completely revolved around sex. Probably not the healthiest, but a selfish little girl is just insatiable sometimes.
In school, I look at my lessons as how they can be applied to sex. In my defense, I am taking a lot of sociology classes so as to work towards a doctorate studying the sociology of sex, so I kind of have to, right? Doesn’t help that a bunch of my film classes are looking at the critical application of cultural sexual norms in films, but at the point that I’ve found a way to link BDSM with media economics, I think I might have some problems. Well, maybe not problems in the traditional sense of the word…
Work is menial and pointless, a way to pay the bills. Therefore, I spend my time perusing the kinkverse of tumblr on my laptop, careful to minimize as people walk by. If I had a penny for every nasty fantasy I dreamed up while getting customers coffee, I’d have that pretty new butt plug by now.
I spend most of my free time with Boyfriend or watching TV. I’ve recently delved into Buffy the Vampire Slayer, the sexually frustrated golden boy (girl) of Joss Whedon. If you haven’t had at least one sex dream about Giles, you’re not watching the show correctly. Pardon my nerd…
And then Boyfriend… Last night he played with me while we watched Pi. Never really sexual, just rubbing my arms and back, but I still managed to start dripping. He had just washed the sheets and I got my mess on the bed.
We didn’t finish the movie.
My ass is so wonderfully sore from the caning, and all I can think about is seeing him tonight. That’s how its been; the days are just filler to separate nights. In my perfect reality, I’d just spend all day reading, studying, watching Buffy, primping myself to be perfect until Boyfriend comes home and my real day could begin. I’d be such a good pet… So happy.
Hmph. Time for work.
I think I came to realize it in it’s entirety though a very dirty dream I had last night.
I want to be tied up in a bar. A sex club, I imagine. Tied up and paraded around as the slut I am. I want to be fucked and used and watched by all those around me. I want it to be a messy affair. I want to follow that by the best shower I’ve ever taken, as I inspect the marks and bruises covering my body.
My growth as a feminist has directly coincided with my growing interest in BDSM. Unusual coincidence, or a research thesis waiting to happen?
ALL I WANT IS A WARDROBE FULL OF FRILLY THINGS.
I want my muscles to tighten. I want my legs to shake. I want to grit my teeth, bite my lip and ask for more. I want to still be feeling it the next day.
This curious girl is getting mighty greedy, isn’t she? Well now that’s no good.
I am 20 years old, and up to this point my sex life has been fairly vanilla. A while ago, a friend became interested in BDSM and sparked my curiosity. I began perusing various sources and have grown increasingly interested myself. My boyfriend and I just decided spice up our sex life and try a few things out, and I couldn’t be more excited.
I want to be a little slut. I want to be his play thing. I want to push boundaries I didn’t know I had.
Here’s where it begins. I am very ready.